JUst MY wOrlD==

just felt like it...

2010-07-12T11:17:00.000-07:00

writing after so long...dont know y just felt like it...few things in my mind...where do i stand as a friend to my friends...some how rather i just feel i am not good enough...or is it just because i rate people higher than what they rate me to be...sometimes it just feels like i have all the friends i can ever wish for in the world...n sometimes it just feels like i am all alone without anyone...i hate this feeling of uncertainty that i get...its 2.30 i am suppose to be hitting bed...but i just cant..stupid brain just cant stop thinking...if it is true that i am not good enough...i am gonna have to change myself...to be a better person.,..

after what felt like centuries!!

2010-03-17T07:58:00.001-07:00

haih

2009-07-19T08:35:00.000-07:00

blogging again after quite sometime...sat was fun...its was ym n kumi's birthday...also manu vs malaysia match tiring day but was a blast with friends...sun was just plain...f-ed up!sometimes feels like its a matter of time before the point i break...dont wanna stay at home...cant bare these things...just wanna die...god take me quick!

...

2009-07-11T06:46:00.000-07:00

blogging after so long...dont know y...just felt like it...currently not thinking anything...just writing whatever that comes to my mind...there's been a lot of things in my mind lately...just feel so disturbed...dont ask y...its just like that...just disappointed with stuffs...y must it happen like that,i dont know...but everything better have a good reason for it...

.....

2009-02-06T06:35:00.000-08:00

currently listening to "JJ lin- Jiang Nan" aka River South

just realised that the song has a good meaning...more like the truth about teenagers love...

today had new student...

n done 90% of my aunty's office powerpoint presentation...its on anti-corruption n bribery...

so basically that calls of my day...so long...

wondering!

2009-02-05T06:50:00.000-08:00

wonder y .... chat all of sudden...n thats to ask certain questions...whats next??!!

fuck off my life!!

2009-02-04T06:05:00.000-08:00

nothing to say...got a msg few minutes ago...which i wanted to ignore but i just couldnt!!dont know whats happening to me...when is it gonna be over!!but right now i just wanna delete all my memories!!!

P.S sorry for the f word...its the best word for me to express my anger....

STUPID *#$@#!!

2009-02-03T06:39:00.000-08:00

a lot happened in a week...so many things to tell n pic to upload...but then i had to go n read that damn msg...n now i'm just not in mood to blog...stupid people...stupid world...its just so unfair!!!

busy crazy past 4 days=late post =.='

2009-01-20T04:41:00.000-08:00

yest was my last sej class for form 3...so i told them n gave my so call goodbye speech,=.='...lol...i had a class at 3 till 4 n the following class was at 7.30...so i was practically bored to dead in between...right after class met honzai in jusco...then his friend was suppose to teach in the same centre n he lost his way...lol...so we walked him back to the centre...n after all that i still had about 2 hours left...sigh...but guess what...i got myself a free form 6 physics lesson there for 2 hours...haha...thanks to MR kam...my manager...never thought he was that good at physics but he seriously was...his explanations were good...lol...then my class finished at 8.45...when jusco again...haha...this time met vivien...surprised to c her working there...it seems she got changed to this branch or something like that she told...lesser make ups on her face this time...haha...then honzai accompanied to the bus stop...so while waiting for the bus i was sending him some song...unlucky him the bus came at that time...lol...so took the bus...mid way in the bus n i realised i got on the wrong bus...sighh...not really wrong la but its not the one i wanted...i was suppose to get down at leisure mall...so the bus i took doesnt go to leisure mall but it goes to the housing area around there...lol...so it took me extra 10 min or so to get to leisure mall compared to i usually do n i ended up missing the bus i'm suppose to take back home...the next bus was like at 10.30...i had to wait for about 45 mins...lol...but i met quite a number of perimbun students in the process of waiting...dont know their names but we must know each other coz they spoke to me...lol...

sunday went for some tamil movie with mum in jusco cheras selatan...lol...i slept off mid way the movie...keke...dont blame me,it was boring...n i didnt really like the hero,"Vijay" kummarah's idol...lol...

n oh ya...honzai here is the ur video...from the friday's celebration...it was pretty cool...thanks to suet suet for organising it n honzai for the games...lol...

ouch!!

2009-01-15T05:03:00.000-08:00

my teeth just hurts more n more...got slight fever liao...dont think so i want to write a lot...according to mum its normal to get fever when this teeth grows...so i couldnt go maluri to teach today but my manager was kind to understand...he told me to rest at home...i took some medicine the doctor gave yest n slept off the whole afternoon...probably gonna be awake the whole night now...but already feeling a lot better...fever gone down...just the pain tooth pain left...haizz...lol...

n i got 2 more new students today...year 6 n form 2...lol...teaching bm n english...not decided on how much to ask...i told them i'll let them know later...they are probably gonna start classes next month...coz jan is already in the mids...gonna meet some of my friends tomorrow in the party...cant wait to c them...miss those fellows...guess i'm gonna be occupied next month onwards...CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT ELSE LIFE HAS TO OFFER...

just something for someone to read~

2009-01-14T07:02:00.000-08:00

bored at night...couldnt sleep either...
so found this one poem...that means nothing to anyone that reads it...
but dedicating it for someone...
n it definitely means something here'

Roses are red,
violets are blue,
sugar is sweet,
and so are you,
But the roses are wilting,
the violets are dead,
the sugar bowl's empty
and so is your head.

p.s "no offens its just the TRUTH"...

Tiring Morning + Boring afternoon=my wednesday""

2009-01-14T01:38:00.000-08:00

well...early morning went clinic de...haiz..my teeth is seriously killing me...got a new teeth growing...haiz...cant believe i got a new teeth growing at the age of 18...kinda very weird...damn,it hurts...according to the doctor,its growing side ways n that is supposedly not good...the doctor was like...

"if it continues to grow that way,u r gonna munch on ur cheek's flesh each time u eat."

haizz...so he gave me some medicine to reduce the swelling n i'm suppose to go again on saturday to pull it out...even thinking about it scares me de...lol...

the catchy bank pamphlet...lol!!

then went bank...well i was just following my parents...officially i got nothing to do with banks or what so ever...saw this damn cute little girl...must be around the age of 6 to 7 i suppose...she was very curious with one of the banks promotion pamphlet...well i dont blame her...its was writen that "1+1=3"...she was like calculating it with her fingers...then she looked at me...haha...seriously cute the way she calculated...lol...love kids...wish to be one again if possible...

n finally found a place to learn mandarin...its in caunnght...dont know if thats how to spell it...lol...a language centre there...so i'll be starting my classes next month...jia you to myself...lol...thats all for my tiring morning...tomorrow got sej class at maluri...haizz...hate sej!!!but i guess its my last coz the centre will be closed next week n i'm stopping next month...hehe...

one more thing!!

2009-01-13T05:39:00.000-08:00

LOL...didnt update so long...n therefore now only wish!

n one more thing...weng hon...here's the pic u wanted...lol
the story is like this actually...i'm also working in a tuition centre in maluri...teaching SEJ!!cant believe that myself but i guess i'll be stopping soon...lol...so i met honzai who is working in jusco there...he came with his friend,suppose to show the friend where the centre is...coz he was gonna teach chinese i think...so when we were in the centre it rained all of sudden...n he was stuck there...so decided to borrow umbrella from one of the lady working there...n thats how he got the umbrella...but seriously...check out the umbrella...its so "..." lol...c for urself u'll know...poor weng hon had to walk back with that umbrella...

felt like YEARS!!

2009-01-13T05:20:00.000-08:00

after months i'm finally updating my blog...well...a lot happened in between n i'm too tired to actually sit n list things down...besides i dont wanna think back of some of the things...its just to ".....".so today i basically did nothing other than updating my blog...thinking of changing the layout but dont know how...lol...gotta go find out how soon...then plan to change the layout as well...but i have not been glued to the computer since morning la...started updating around 2+ till 5+ only...then bath n got ready for class...hehe...now its different compared to those days...those days meaning last year of coz...where i used to get ready n go for tuition...but now,i get ready to teach tuition...it feels a lot different actually...taught science today...my favourite...

well...this is how my days have been going past since spm finished...but i guess friday is gonna be fun...celebrating friends birthday...n i do emphasise on friend"S"...4 of them...listed as weilin+chi Gein+jung ling+chong chi...lol...but there are a lot of probs going on...hopefully everything will be ok n the party will be a blast...just like our new year celebration was...

2 more weeks!!

2008-10-30T00:55:00.000-07:00

its arriving...n its coming fast!!2 more weeks n its spm...haizz...got so many unanswered questions but right now...dont wanna think much about anything...just wanna get it over with spm...plus not to forget... my secondary school life is coming to an end...haizz...kind of sad thinking about it...so much of memories to cherish...sweet n bitter ones,but whatever it is...i'll never forget it...anyway,just updating my blog for fun... it has been months...

"There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.":-P

once again~~~

2008-10-01T05:26:00.000-07:00

updating my blog after nearly a month or so...trials are over n dusted...dont wanna think about it anymore...screwed up a lot of papers n now wondering how the results are gonna be...haizz...anyway,1 week holiday need to take some break...today went celebrate raya in aunty's house...got duit raya also...so later saturday plan to go out for a movie since i got money to spend liao...haha...but not sure what movie to watch...loss touch with movies...sad...sad...dont wanna crap much anyway...lastly SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all my malay friends...

"Love can make you happy,
but oftentimes it hurts,
but love is only special when you give it to whom its worth "

P.S
to whoever reading this...it isnt like what u guys think...

lotzzzz

2008-08-12T06:10:00.000-07:00

haizz...lots of things happening everyday...no time to update also...last saturday suppose to visit firdaus in hospital...actually it was suppose to be last week thursday,but we counlt make it coz i had tuition...so we thought that sat would be just fine...to go straight after school...the so call raya replacement school of coz...so we went straight after school ...felt kind of odd to wear school uniform n go somewhere else but i made a promise with syawal so i had to go...waited for bus for nearly an hour n we were suprised to meet suet yin n her friends...they were gonna take the bus as well...go shopping in leisure mall to buy some presents for the bsm installation day...well,waited quite long for the bus,n fhewww...it was my first time in a really crowded bus...plus i am seriously not good at balancing myself...however we managed to stuff in the bus...n thats when syawal got a message from firdaus that he is discharged...haizzz...i could have gone back but then...haizz...so syawal n i got down in leisure mall n decided to take our lunch there before we went back...unfortunately or fortunately,i have no idea...we met suet yin,yee mun n her friends again...it was in the a&w...they decided to eat there as well...thats before syawal accidently said"makan kat shakeys nak?aku belanja," n that was like digging his own grave...he had to put 30% of whatever we ate in shakeys...the bill came up to rm80...sick man,spend so much on food...so all of us put about 10 while he paid 30...haha...poor fellow...then we split n they went shopping while we went popular,bought some books...especially for maths,PN MAIMON wanted it...haizzz....spend for no reason again...reach back,had to go back hometown...but it was fun...i went merempit again...hehe...this time nearly got caught by police...but manage to keep the cool n escaped...haha...hopefully i'll be lucky again next time...

monday in school was crazy...perhimpunan today,one word "HANCUR" pengetua was mad with the new prefectorial board...we,although RETIRED had to help them with the perhimpunan to control the students...sad...sad...now the issue coming up is...we got to help them out although we are retired...which i seriously dont want to...we are retired n its weird to go n tegur pelajar n stuff...plus we are not allowed to wear white uniform...n if the we do,our certs will be banned...what the F LA...5 years as prefect n this is what we get in return?this is unfair...bang RAHIM first...damn guy...so we plan to wear white n c what happens after holiday...not gonna care anymore...huha...

finally!!

2008-08-07T01:28:00.000-07:00

the day was finally here...haha...should have retired yest but pengetua was so call busy...so we retired today...i was seriously sad but...kind of cool...no more prefect duties...so,tomorrow i am officially starting my day as a student...yeah...but still...no more escaping from not finishing homeworks de...haizzz...plus today we were suppose to visit firdaus in hospital...but then plan canceled,got tuition n i havent do my homework...so i guess we are going on sat...thats if he is still in hospital till then...haha...hopefully he gets well soon...n as for the new ajk batch for prefect...do ur best...be the best like our year was...hehe...

fuh...after months...

2008-08-03T00:04:00.000-07:00

man...after like 2 months i'm updating my blog again...kinda very bz nowadays...no time to update my blog also...but i guess i should be free after this...gonna retire as a prefect after 5 years...kind of sad...to let go everything after 5 years but the bright site is i'm gonna be free...a normal life as a student...been waiting for that for a long time...plus...working on the slide show for bsm installation day...thanks to all my friends for helping...u guys made it a lot...lot better...:-P n i chatted with her yest...it was a group conversation with another friend...according to her she pulled me in the conversation...didnt make much sense anyway...just glad we chatted,thats all......

friday...

2008-06-13T18:46:00.000-07:00

i guess it was one of those days in school where we were very free...had nothing to do...spent the time talking stories n crapping...my friends were practically bashing me...coz on the drama competition day after our performance we were free...so i was at the field watch some march pass that they had...then i got to know this one girl...if i still remember she said her name was yap liew kuan or something like that la...coz i was so disappointed think about the drama thing...i was not focused on her...then she spoke a while n asked for my hp no,n i was still blur...i guess she thought i was ignoring her,n she smiled n walked away...=.='...my friends were seriously bashing me for that...i felt bad for her,i didnt mean to ignore her...i was just thinking about something else...haha...plus...i wished it was someone else (wouldnt wanna mention name)...today i saw she was very busy doing her homework n stuff...made me wonder y am i so free when she is busy...haha...after school came back home n slept...had to wake up for tuition at 4.30...haizzz...bio class...but it was quite an interesting chapter la...came back home n something really i didnt expect happened...out of nowhere she chatted with me...that was like after 3 weeks not even an hi...but i dont know la...there will be times she speaks to me...there will be times she just ignores me...i just dont understand...but anyway,i'm glad she spoke to me...

lucky me...

2008-06-13T18:33:00.000-07:00

today was quite a good day...first thing went school...pn kamales,our drama teacher came n said that we got 4th place for the comp...n the judges were happy with our perfomances...only thing slack was our time...if we finished in time we could have got something...but its ok la...she was quite happy...coz we didnt just go out there n loose...we gave our best shot...all did well...but to do well n loose,its a bad bad feeling...but i guess we'll be performing in school next month for bulan bahasa...haha...thats cool...then...say went on quite smooth...then bio time...miss maha asked for our english paper...the one that i went our of topic...according to her...if we followed last year's format,what i did was correct...so those of us who went out of topic got some marks because she remarked our paper...but i was still not sure if i would get an a...lucky me,i actually got an a...so my results this time...its ok la...9a n 1 b...haizzz...b for physics...that also 69...just 1 more mark...but its ok if b this time...i'm aim all for trial...hopefully the whole of alfa can score straight a's for trial n spm...that'll be a record...haha...i scored well...but i'm still not happy...i dont know y...weird weird...came back home...my mum didnt believe that i got a for my english...coz i showed her my paper the day before that n that i got 60 earlier...haha...but she eventually did la...didnt go tuition also...ponteng...tired la...needed some rest after the drama comp n things taht have been happening around me...at night only did add maths homework n ended up slept off...haha...had around 2 question which i didnt do...

drama~

2008-06-13T17:57:00.000-07:00

the whole drama team...gonna miss all the
practising days
all the make ups being done before our turn...
looks like i'm in some animated cartoon world...
with suann...both our faces are so oily...
full of sweat,haa...
hakim aka pak tuai,predip aka jawing,
navien aka jamal n our hero...
richard aka libau...
11th jun...

the day was finally here...after we been practising for week...even the start of the day went bad for us...suppose to leave school at 6.30 but ended up leaving at 7...thanks to the damn bus driver who came late...it was in pj...so with the jam n stuff we had to reach there before 8 or else we will be disqualified...lucky for us teacher spoke to someone n ended up that all the school are actually stuck in a jam n most came late...so we were not disqualified...but one thing...it was a stiff competition...all the teams were good n we were the 8th team to perform...the 7 before us were good n each n everyone performing scared us...haizzz...but we went out there n gave it all we had...but unfortunately for us...have no idea how we went over the time given...coz in school we are usually in bar with the time...plus the audio cable had some prob towards the end...haizzz...but u managed somehow...the last 2 teams that performed was really good...well not the last 2 actually,its the 9th team,was very good...the last team was the host,seafeild...they were the only team to finish on time...haizzz...all the performance finished around 2.30...so we were free till 3 plus before the closing ceremony...when they announced the results as expected we didnt win,the host got first...that was seriously unfair...everyone expected the team no 9 to win...but they got 2nd...everyone was disappointed with the judges decision...though we lost...it was a cool experience...drama comp can be scary...not at district level...but at state...came back home around 6 n had to rush to tuition...fuhh...tiring but enjoyed it...

SIENZZZ...

2008-06-10T04:29:00.000-07:00

tuesday was a bad bad day...except that i got good results for my chemistry n bm...but as expected...my bi...haizzz...very sad,my essay went out of topic...n it costed me my A...i got a B...it has to turn up to be my spoiler...actually i dared myself...that if i really like her,i would do my best in the exam...so far...i have been proving myself right,except when it came to english...haizzz....i guess somethings are just not meant to be...but whatever happens life has got to move on...i'm just glad that i have wonderful friends to support me through the hard times...but sometimes...i feel as in faith is being to hard on me...haizz...anyway enough craping coz i might end up crapping even longer if i continue...haha...tomorrow is gonna be competition...didnt have practise today...teacher wanted us to get "enough rest"...tomorrow got to be in school by 6 n we r leaving school at 6.30...dont know what time we will be back...the district comp took us till 4 in the afternoon and this is state...i think it'll be 6 to 7 by the time we reach back...haizz...anyway...just hope for the best...we r gonna give it all we got...n c what the results turns out to be...

9th jun

arrg...back to school...didnt have much problem waking up in the morning...been waking up early morning for the past one week except for the sat...the first few things that struck my mind in the morning was EXAM RESULTS!!!plus i get to c her after 2 weeks...not sure if that was a good thing or not...i'm just mixed up...its like i dont really know what i want n what i dont...but i cant think much now...infact i'm trying not to...i need to be focused...the drama competition is coming near...just 2 days away...but whatever it is,its never easy to let go everything just like that...haizz...got some of my results n it seems good...except for my english...according to teacher i did badly...haizzz...y?of all the subjects...haizz...plus got to stayback for drama practise...lucky i did some of my tuition homework in school...coz i reached back home around 6 n tuition was at 7...so managed to finish up all tuition homeworks...so maybe next time i should try doing my tuition homeworks earlier on sat or sun...

tired~

2008-06-08T00:23:00.000-07:00

7th jun
forgot write yest...haha...well nothing to write also...watch tv the whole day...nothing else to do...n ohya...met this old friend of mine...she is from teluk intan,perak...standard 3 friend...after that never c then suddenly she added me...haha...i was suprised...but cool...its always cool meeting old friends...then evening went for a wedding...sienzz...didnt wanna go but had to since it was my father's good friends daughter's wed...haha...but it was ok la...sat there n did nothing...came back home n slept...school gonna start...better sleep as much as possible...later cannot sleep...haha...

=.=...

2008-06-07T22:56:00.000-07:00

6th jun

well...didnt post it on that day...was kind of busy n tired...but it was a fun day in a way...went out with friends to play futsal...it was fun though i'm not that good at football...kind of good to release all my tentions n forget about some things...actually it wasnt that expansive coz quite a number of us went...lets c...i think it was...me,leo,kummarah,divesh,thomas,mark,joshua,gabs and ray...spent the whole 2 hours playing n crapping...haha...then we had an idea of dropping by at leisure mall but to think about it lucky we did not...i mean,we were all smelly n sweating...haha...not gonna go to leisure mall like that...haha...so we decided to go back...leo n i were planning of watching some movie at home but both ended up sleeping...haha...i woke up n it was 4 plus de...haizz...had to go tuition...plus it was bio...a boring one...but overall my day was good la...at least i didnt think of her much...haha...happy for that...

5th jun 08

2008-06-05T06:05:00.000-07:00

today was another ordinarary day...went back hometown today...not far la...just about 15 minutes away from my house...wonder y i went...it was so boring...nothing to do...i was practically spending my time go merempit...enjoyed doing it...especially now when i'm frustrated...i was practically flying at 100 plus in the narrow route at my hometown...not bothered about my safety...dont know y...i was just not bothered...haizz...haha...but it would have been better if leo came along...usually we go merempit together ...its better when u have someone to merempit with...haha...went tuition straight from there...haizz...so much of homeworks leh...tired~!!plus...its already a week i didnt message or chat with her...not even a simply hi...haizz...need to pull myself up...but i really doubt myself now...dont know if i could...dont think i could...its just that everything seems so hard all of sudden...traying to look at the brighter site of life...but here,its different...i dont know which is the brighter site...everything seems so dark...arggg!!!

4th jun 08

2008-06-03T21:26:00.000-07:00

ola ...well,my first time blogging...not really used to it yet...but i will soon...lets c...today was nothing much...went school in the morning for drama practise...comp next wed...tired with so many things happening around me...we been practising for the past 2 weeks,so hopefully we can gain something in the comp...later need to go tuition...life is really busy...plus just 4 more days n school reopens...got to go school...i dont really know if i miss school o not...i'm just plain confused n loss...many things i wished never happens happened...n many that i wish for never happened...haizzz...still cant forget her...dont know what else is coming...but i got to prepare myself for it...